There's still this strange haze that I can't seem to see through. Every time I think I can see the other side, the recollection of his past reminds me that there is still a ravine between us. No level of affection nor love strong enough can make those shadows disappear. It's like this constant nagging I can't get rid of.
He has a son.. Flesh and blood shared with another woman. His 'lover'. At one point in his life she was his only concern... The only thing that mattered to him.
Ugh. I can't fit into the seams of his life. It doesn't seem right. It seems backwards to try.
